Monday, October 29, 2012

Istanbul - 1: The Cool American

Last week, we were walking down Istiklal Caddesi at around 12 midnight. It was packed with mostly young, trendily dressed mixed groups, some families like us, and some couples walking hand-in-hand. It was not more than 55F, and yet the Turks were in boots and leather jackets.

My husband carried the American on his shoulders while I held the Singaporean's hand, enjoying the sights and sounds of the party district of Istanbul.

Small businessmen had set up make-shift stalls on the promenade's edges, selling second-hand books, trinkets, toys, postcards...there were numerous pushcarts selling Simit, and some others offering roasted chestnuts, meaty, creamy yellow, with their black skins split open. Musicians played the saxophone, the trumpet, the lute, and the violin - mostly Turkish tunes - with a mat out front to catch their earnings. Sometimes, their children would dance, red-cheeked, twinkly-eyed and smiling, in their woolen caps and jackets, while their mothers kept an eye on errant bank notes.

We passed a nightclub almost every 10 yards - with techno and trance wafting down from the open upper floors where clubbers chilled out at tables in balconies looking out onto the street below, their heads lost in psychedelic haloes from the dance floor.

Although he is only 3, the American sure seemed to enjoy the music. He was rocking his head and occasionally stuck his arm up, with his pointy finger raised in appreciation. He actually told me, "Mommy, this is cool. I love it." (!)

I'm thinking about the age when he will want to sneak out and go clubbing with his friends...He's one of those strong and silent types who walks to his own beat :) and knows exactly what he wants. I quite like that.

Sunday, October 28, 2012

In Your Name

Listen.
When I tell you that every grain of rice I eat
Bears your name.
That with every breath I take,
Or with every blink of my eyes,
A myriad expressions flit across my face
Because I am thinking of the moment
When we will meet again…
My rapture descries you in every
Rock, leaf, cloud, or ripple,
In every taste, texture, touch, smell,
In the sweetest fragrance.
And in the foulest wince.
I care not for censure or judgment,
For mockery or pain,
For my piety fears no one.
I revel, and I endure
Because I live every moment
In your name.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Today


Today I walked through these Roman ruins,
A thousand and seven hundred years old,
Scattered with nubbled Egyptian columns
Pockmarked by the brunt of centuries.
I breathed upon blue veined marble –
Medusa’s thighs – and nestled under her skirts  
Where the aqueduct poured fish into
The underground cistern, feeding a city
Of Emperors and slaves with its tears.
This sacred place!
Where people, for centuries,
Had risen from their stupor,
Having eaten, lusted, prayed,
Drunk with sensual pleasure,
And reached for one another again.
Somehow, I was certain that you were thinking of me
As I leant forward, seduced by
Medusa’s upturned head.


- In Istanbul, October 23 2012. 

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Love

Because of you, in gardens of blossoming
Flowers I ache from the perfumes of spring.
I have forgotten your face, I no longer
Remember your hands; how did your lips
Feel on mine?

Because of you, I love the white statues
Drowsing in the parks, the white statues that
Have neither voice nor sight.

I have forgotten your voice, your happy voice;
I have forgotten your eyes.

Like a flower to its perfume, I am bound to
My vague memory of you. I live with pain
That is like a wound; if you touch me, you will
Make to me an irreperable harm.

Your caresses enfold me, like climbing
Vines on melancholy walls.

I have forgotten your love, yet I seem to
Glimpse you in every window.

Because of you, the heady perfumes of
Summer pain me; because of you, I again
Seek out the signs that precipitate desires:
Shooting stars, falling objects.

- Pablo Neruda (1904 - 1973)